July 8th, 2001

More "L word" blather

People are in love with being loved. It's only slightly miserable, last time I saw Much Ado About Nothing (1993 version) I couldn't get all that excited for the Benedick/Beatrice coupling.. It looks all purty and smarmy all, but really.. why'd they start liking each other? Because they each thought the other one loved them first. Then suddenly, when faced with being loved, they decide to "love" in return. Blah.
  • Current Music
    Bjork - It's Oh So Quiet

The hardest part is things already said

i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
i wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
i am still right here
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way

I'm too drained to think for myself.
  • Current Music
    some things you lose some things you give away