It's entirely possible I would have had amazing fun. Surely "last Gencon" vibe would have pulled it's share of the weight. NPCing in an amazing larp with people I damn near worship, might have been a tad cool, I confess.
Maybe I'm a coward.
That's a possibility I won't deny.
Maybe I should be taking more risks.
I remember a feeling.. 2 or 3 seconds of pure confusion. Awkard uneasiness. Maybe that's what I'm afraid of. Chaos. Change. Forfeiture. Nothingness. Rinse and repeat.
What does this have to do with a gaming convention?
Listen very closely.. you'll hear the sound carried on a thousand winds.